liar? tell me bout it..
who made everyone believe in the fake? oh alright maybe not the fake stories... coz it was not coincidence, i did it on purpose.. i wanted ppl to see him, my bf, seeing me to school everyday. coz i knew ppl would definately be asking u and u will be more than willing to ans them with ur stories... yea....
and leave out a hell lot of chunk of facts...
applause coward =)
its not tat i didn't tell ppl bout the fact tat i loved him since day 1.. its just tat i only tell ppl that i bother to talk to.. and to care bout.
apparently, i haven't been doing as much rounds of bitching as plain mother fucking alex to tarnish his reputation... but then again.. why should i even bother to waste my time in the first place... i'm writing this post... lol, alex better be feeling honoured...
and oh yea, did i mention, alex is a big fucking coward, typical plain ass who is afraid of getting into bitch fights and not enough balls to speak up against a stupid girl... i mean, tat slug if u rmb... haha..
fucking attention seeker... he's so afraid of offending key girls...
lol
wat a pathetic sorry disgrace.. sorry sir... those friends of hers tat think u are a sorry disgrace, i can only praise them for their incredible foresight.. ahaha
i'm not a coward, i don't close down my blog for the sake of getting out of trouble... but i seriously think this shit needs revamping.....



i found a hp on the bus and returned it to the owner..
i ended up waiting like forever outside the fajar 7 eleven store...
the owner was LATE!!!!!
omg..
i was soooo pissed....
i found it at orchard...
and i returned it at fajar...
HAHA




the choir camp!!!! pictures say a thousand words.. besides, my fingersa have been working all day.. let me chill for a little while....



Unloved uncared Unseen

you think i don't know. but i freaking know everything. i don't believe the last few hugs, the sudden change of attitude towards me was just to make sure i believe in you. You just needed me to listen and follow your instructions so tat he will cool down as well. I was never good enough. what made me succumb wasn't your words and your hug and touch. what made me finally give in WITHOUT a choice was the fact that you could go to that extent just to help him cool down. No one. Willi ever do that for no one besides you because you are my mother. You asked if he said sorry to me, will i be ok with it. i don't need that. coz i know if you have to do that, you'd have to put the blame on yourself again. i don't want that to happen to you because of me BECAUSE YOU ARE MY MOTHER. i don't want you to lay down towards him just for me. But the fact that you did it for him. i have no choice. yes i may be crude and rude and all that. i know. i guess in the end, everything is my fault again. i accept it. if that can win you back, i'd lay down my life for you. but its not happening. no one likes to be rude and i don't like to be rude. but if you continue stepping on me, you can't expect a good reply from me either. You claimed you are fair. how wrong you are. you said i couldn't see, i never understood. but in actual fact, i do. i see your every action. every little thing you do. you'd think i don't understand. but i see through it all the time. i was right.
the way he shed his tears, the way you looked at him with deep worry. you never had that on your face no matter how unhappy i am. Thats the look i'll probably never get in my lifetime. you believe his words, i don't blame you coz he's your son. i will never blame you. eventhough i do complain, at the end of the day, i always understand. But guess you never understood my tears. but yeah, has anyone really understood me?
you believe he is misunderstood. i don't blame you, maybe he really is, i don't know. The fact that you don't understand me as much, it just hurts. It hurts so much that the only things you ever see are my flaws. its sucks even more when you are able to see his beauty. when you can't see mine. know how much that hurts?
its so obvious. everything. You care so much about him.
i don't mind him hitting me anymore, since he said it was because i was rude to you these days. it was a pretty sure-win excuse i suppose. i'm not sorry about scratching him til he bled either, since i told him to freakin lay off. when i say lay off, i mean it.

i guess, its all my fault, maybe if i didn't noticed that biasness of affection, maybe i didn't care, maybe i was thinking too much.... then i wouldn't be this hurt. Do you know how many times i have cried at night, after school while walking home, in the toilet.. etc just because of this? he's always the angel, and i'm always the goddamned devil.








HOW to earn my FIRST KISS

1) You have to be MY BOYFRIEND

2)super duper sweet to me:)

3)love me like theres no tomorrow

4)tell the world you love me

5)prove that you're not the jerk i had previously

6)i don't know how, but just prove your love to me
*sincerely*

HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN TEN DAYS

ben: You know what?
You did your job now, Andie.
andie: Yes, l did.
ben: You wanted to lose a guyin ten days.
Congratulations.
You did it.You just... lost him.
andie: No, l didn't, Ben.
Cause you can't lose something you never had.
ben: Well...
...it's not what l expected.
andie: lt's better.
ben: Congratulations.



So... how can you lose something that you never had?
it was a great game.. because we could exercise self control.
but what if it hadn't been there?
what if its starting to slacken?
what if my mind is starting to believe in those beautiful lies we share?
what if i'm running out of excuses?
because i am losing control
because my will power has slackened
because my mind is starting to betray me
because i'm running out of excuses to not believe in you.
i'm afraid of you